Tonight I got to live in community. It is very important. It is a place where people show their character, a place where people let their guard down. There is something undoing about people with their guard down. It is in that place where you can love more truly. In that place you can see more clearly. This is all I want. I want to see and be seen. I don't like the passing by places. I don't like the head nods and vagueness of the public places. I want to live in the places where we commune together.
I am still not sure of what that will look like moving forward. I have to, need to, live where we are at. It is continually frustrating. I keep trying to guess, but I don't see a way out. I am too tired to fight. I am too tired to live on the road. I am ready for a summer cooped up in this farm house in the woods (which is actually a modular home on a treed acre lot). I want to do more, but I don't know if I am ready to commit to such an unstable footing. It is not about indecisiveness, it is about not knowing the best way. Thy will be done.
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